Love Lost.....

Am I to feel secure in all of this, cherished and held dear.......or just a novelty.....an afterthought? No matter how emotionally unavailable I become, I will never be emotionally unavailable to you.... I feel like I'm flapping in the wind...becoming tethered and frayed. If I wait long enough I suppose I will get caught up in the wind and blown free from it all.....free from restraints, reckless abandon....